done but hurt

We talked. Thought it was done. Thought it was clear for the both of us. But still he chose to hurt me. Gave me options or choices which I really hate to do. He want me to choose - for the second time around.

I'm not into argument about my friends. I did prioritized him for everything. I only want time for me to spend with my friends. They did nothing to him - to our relationship. But he was still insisting that I'm doing wrong. That I'm fighting because of 2 guys.

They are not just guys. They are my brothers, best friends.


I don't want to choose anymore. Never wanted it ever since. And when I choose no one he broke up with me. Yes. We're done.

I'm done. It's painful. He gave me so much pain. Like killing me to death. Like tearing me into pieces. But still he never cared to feel what he's doing to me. He's still killing me. Hurting me. 

I set him free. Gave him what he wished for.

I want to move on. Let every pain go with the tears that I had shed for him. I want no more pain.


But tears keep on falling. Heart is still aching. Conscience is killing me. How can I move on if he keep on telling me that he's waiting for his mamy. His mamy who use to love him and care for him. Use to sacrifice for him.


I don't him to kill himself for me. I don't him to leave his work for me. But I think he did. And it's hurting me - killing me.


Please let me go. Let me move on. Let me face the world that you gave me.


I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I want no more pain.


This will be the last tear that will fall from my eyes. I'm letting you go. Thank you and Goodbye.