broken & hurt. confused.

Hmm. How am I gonna write this? Through out my 23 years of existence in this lovely world there's one thing I always wish I have. Respect.

 

I've been to a very big fight with my sister months ago. I was hurt and hoped that somehow she'll realize how much damaged was done by what she is doing to me. But just a month ago I attended a Parish Renewal Experience and there I realized that I should always forgive whatever it takes. And I did. I forgave like I always do. Though it's the pain I can't take. It's killing me. Thinking why with all of the people that exist in this world, why is it always my loved ones made it so painful for me?

 

Of all people it's always my family whom I used to live for. Breath for. Work for. Yet they were even the most known people that make my heart broken. Every single day. How was that? I'm used to it. *laugh*

 

I would like to thank zen for this quote I read from her page.

 

" Natalie Portman said, "The moment you think you're above someone else is the moment you need to be slapped in the face." Haylavet! -zen's facebook page"