hopeless.. i HOPE not!

I’m searching for someone on the net. I’m looking for that person that might help us on our problem (family as usual). But as I search I just figured out.. That person even got problem to face. I’m feeling hopeless. I just don’t know what to do. His the only person that might help us with this kind of situation but even him got a bigger problem to fix.

GOD, could you please send me a sign? I just don’t know what else I can do.. I’m just so frustrated-nearly desperate to solve this.

*sigh*

P.S.
I/We really needs prayers.

great news of the DAY. ♥

It's a great morning when I woke up. Seeing the bright sun shining on me and feels it heat on my face.. because it's already 9:30 AM. Wahaha. I haven't slept that late since our family problem started a month ago. It's a brand new day. Thank God he let me woke up and have another day. :)

This day is a great day for me. I can say. Because God had given me another hope for my problems for the second time. He just sent angels on me.

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Upon waking up, I sat beside my mother (on the floor because we don't have table) and ate breakfast. Yummy sinigang na buto-buto. :) our small room is so messy. I can't think how to clean up the whole mess. My youngest brother's running around. Gone outside then came back running again. He was just so annoying and he's making me mad. But I don't bother. I'm not in the mood to make my brother cry. *sigh* think. Think. Think. What am I gonna do for the whole day? It's Bonifacio Day today and it's Holiday. Crap! I'm supposed to have a double pay shift today if my Boss let me have a duty today. *sigh* Now what? I have nothing to do at our house. I went outside to find my younger siblings. They should help me clean up the mess. But before I get inside the my greatest angel came. Mommy Nene. She's there because I have to pay her for the rent of the house but the problem is I have no money. I'm so shy to face her because I know I can't pay her right away. But she's so nice. She didn't get angry when I told her that I'll be paying her on the 14th of December (it's my Christmas bonus that I'm going to use for the payment). The problem for the rent is cleared. Thanks God. =)

And the discussion started...

As we talk (including my mother beside me) she gave the best option that I can have. She'll lend me money for my brother's problem. By that option I don't have to pawn my other house. What I just need to do is put that house on rent and its payments will go to our rent  on the house (where we currently stay). By that time, it's easy for me to build my other house. Fantastic plan. I'm so thankful for God let me have Mommy Nene and Ate Ivy. I never thought that they'll be helping us. I got teary eyed. It's all tears of joy.

I must say, I'm the luckiest person in this world by this time. I can feel that my life is going to be lighter for the year 2011. How thankful I am.

For all the troubles, problems, heartaches that I encountered I never lose hope. He never left me ALONE for he LOVED me just the way I am.

I LOVE YOU LORD just the way you are. Thank You! ♥

I ♥ Harry Potter.. for life :D

As people can see I am a self-proclaimed super addicted, much hyper-active stalker of Harry Potter. Yes I am! I'm so guilty with that fact. Haha.

Harry Potter has been my addiction since I watched its 1st movie Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone when I was in high school. *har* On that very first sight I knew that it'll be my ultimate addiction. My addiction to the movie got me to follow all of its books. I have read Harry Potter and Chamber of Secret, Prisoner of Azkaban, Goblet of Fire, Order of the Phoenix, Half-Blood Prince, and lastly Deathly Hallows. I even got amazed with myself for I have read those 7books without buying them. *laugh* I'm really good at borrowing things. =)

As I read the books I still follow them on film. I got disappointed when I didn't saw important scenes on the movie which can be read at the books. But still I never get tired of following them. I soooooo ♥ Harry Potter.

I follow it on books, movie, and internet. Then 1 day I was so surprised when I read the lead characters' biograpphy. Emma Watson aka Hermione Jean Granger  have the same birth date as mine. Yes! We have the same birth date. The only difference is that I am older than her. She was born on the 90's while I'm on the 1987th year. Waaaaah. That made me an addict-avid fan more. =)

I am just so happy that I get to watch it's final book's Part1 movie. Though a little bit sad because it's getting near to it's finale I'm still happy that a person like J.K. Rowling got great mind to make this great movie-book thing. And when I get old I won't stop loving this book for this has been a part of me. =)

Congratulations to J.K. Rowling for a great job. I ♥ it. =)

*cheers to all Harry Potter fans out there!*

♥♥♥ 

MONEY is HEADACHE

It's been months since I wrote my last blog. Long time no write BLOG of mine. :) for the longest time of my absence on writing a blog I've got lots of experience. There comes traumatic, drama, fun, excitement, and most of all STRESS & PRESSURE. *sigh*

Actually, I don't know where to start. There's lot of stories I wanted to share. But those stories have the same ending. They all created the biggest headache of my life. MONEY.

Money is defined as a basic necessary nowadays for lots of people. Without money, you can't buy anything. You can't have everything that you needed to live. But for me I define money as HEADACHE. Why? As simple as this.. I grew up without it and now living without it, surviving to have it and live the way I dreamed of.

For me problems are nothing. It's just a piece of experience that I use to live in my everyday living. But if the problem has something to do with money, it's the time for me feel like killing myself.


A month ago, my family and I experienced the most traumatic experience a family could ever have nor would not wanted to have.

My brother got into a fight. Not so huge fight but a scary one. (I usually specify him as a bully for what he use to do to us - his older or younger siblings). He first got drunk (not so much) with some of his co-bully friends and then the unexpected scenery was done. One of his friends get into a fight and what my brother do is stop the fight. But then it didn't stop, yet he just created a bigger mess. He and his friends get to injure a guy so much. I can't imagine how my brother did that inhumane thing. The guy was totally injured and even got its head damaged. And the ending? The guy's family planned to sue a case to my brother and his friends. My brother and his co-bullies are currently hiding somewhere I don't know. And the biggest problem on that thing is I have to relocate my family in a safer place. By that time I really don't have enough money for us to be relocated as soon as I wanted. I was so scared that I didn't get to sleep because of trauma. I was so afraid that the guy will get revenge of what my brother has done to him. It was serious injury. Very serious.

But despite of trauma I realized how God love me so much. I get to relocate my family at our former residence. That residence is where I grew up. People there are so nice to accept us even though we brought them so much trouble when we were still residing there few years ago. Though my family and I were left on the problem ALONE (as usual), and I don't know how we're going to survive I never lose faith that God he'll never leave us alone. Currently, I'm having trouble on money. I've got so much debt and I don't know how I'm gonna pay those. But I have to prioritize my family though I feel like they don't care about the problem I'm facing.

Sometimes I feel like giving up. Yet I can't resist my family. Though it hurts to battle alone I'm still happy. Because despite of all this thing, GOD had never left me. GOD has always LOVE and still LOVING me despite of my sins that I've done to him.

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